There will be no forgiveness anymore. There will be no deal making anymore. I have my application not anymore stored on my PC, it is deleted, it is gone, just like the chance of you ever delivering, making right, cause for about 15 to 20 years, you, all of you, knowing about me, knowing about my work, put my life under four aspects of Rape, and that is Show, Lies, Hypocrisy and Acting. I will keep it short, no reason to write here a whole lot, makes no sense, although I could do it in extreme detail, but why? You piss on my life, you shit on it, you vomit on it, you filth it with your trash, and that for about 15 to 20 years, knowing more about it than I myself, oh wonder, cause you never give answers, and instead just keep going with your Rape Shit Show of me, so with your Lies, Hypocrisy, Show and Acting, denying me everything, controlling my life in each aspect, just to tear it down, to erase all who I am, never making true, only to destroy me. You could, simple fact, deliver each fragment of a second, make sure that I don't need to be in any horror, but that is just the only action list you don't do, and instead you keep going with your rape of me.
For around one year and a half I know now about it all, have found out more and more, and even this EMail will most likely not have any positive effect, of course not, cause you don't give a shit, not even, about me. You only care about the moneys, the success my work does mean and make something out of it, that had been never the intention: A political warfare whatever. The one and only, always and ever reason, for me having written my books, is to make sure that she, Saylanna, can find her way back to me. You turned that in something I have no part in, and what is your fault alone: The state of this world. I have no idea how it could ever happen that you let it be like it is, currently, but it is damn sure not my fault, while I am just, of course, another, victim of rape of the scum you allowed to exist, what I would never do. The only path in life is right, done, nothing else. That you fail on all your levels of existence, letting this world be in the state that it raped me too, that is your fault, on your account, just like it is all your fault, on all your accounts, that I have now lost 20 years, nothing of what I want got true, is true, and I am left with nothing now, with the exception of massive psychological hurt, harm, emotional, a massive violation of my core, who I am. And that even you dare calling protection, most likely cause of the weird disgusting belief of you, that I still want my application shit to be true, part of the most biggest rape Company called WWE. The only option for me to ever get close to that company headquarter building, is in company of the powers of military right, to tear it down and to make sure that each one responsible for the harm caused to me gets punished, in legal, in right. All I wanted and still all I want, that is the only reason for me having written my books, was never different, will never be different, is to make sure, that she can find herself back to me. Your whatever crap you made out of it, has nothing to do with my life, and it will never have. But if you would care, I would have never had the need to write this here, and I would be happy, for around 15 years at least. You destroyed all that, you destroyed me, women, Womanhood, and that leads to you, dear ladies.
All of you, who know about me, you raped me in the most brutal and disgusting way ever possible, cause my bulwark, all I am about is you, women, straight, hetero, correct, real, true, right, wonder, reality, time, everything, that is what I am about, clear shown in my work, how I act, all I am, and I am the reason, I am alone, SOLELY, no one else, for you having your life as it is, for the Women's Wrestling being a Hashtag, having reason, meaning, I am the one you owe everything, otherwise you would still do your dreaming about it all, do your be the bitch of two idiots fighting about in some movie, having nearly never to say something, with the exception of the usual sexistic crap, and damn sure you would still do your five minutes at max Bra and Panties, Super Attitude Era "wonders" of Women's Wrestling and Wrestling in a whole, show business in a whole. I am the reason you have all that gone and it is on the way to as it should be, I am alone, no one else. And all you have given me was rape. A massive, constant 15 to 20 years long, everyday rape. Never any of you made the own words true, never any of you were even in the stupid same postal code, you don't give a shit about me, not even, you only care for reaping the benefit of my underground taking away of all what I am about, made your own life be of wonder for it, giving not even a shit about me. Pamela, Rebecca, Kana, Lyra, list keeps going, no matter what your real name is, you are just faceless whore number whatever, and all of you know that. You destroyed you, your whole gender, womanhood, for me, turning each word I have written in my works about you into the most biggest words of follishness, of me, the biggest fool, clearly, ever, sadly. I had deep in my heart the true belief of it is right, it is correct, and in burning fight and baseline fairness and belief and understanding of Womanhood being Holy and Sacred, I gave you all that, each word without any secret thought about it, nothing, damn sure nothing. I even never asked for anything, I wrote it just because of my Heart, my Understanding of you, women. You destroyed that, to the most tiniest bit left, and even that then you further destroyed. 15 to 20 years, you are fine with my situation, you only take, you never give, you only rape, you never deliver, already clear with one example, that sums it all up, and that is Lina. Only asking for money, only giving me time in sex and wonder, for money, and apart from that telling me just lies, making a show, never real, never true, and that sums it all up what you, the rest of you, dear ladies, has done, and you are still doing: Show, Lies, Hypocrisy, Acting. Nothing more. You rape me each bit of your existence, leaving me now with the massive problem of how I am, straight, hetero, true, real, the one and only man ever able to call the own self so legendary, I am fact THE MAN, and my work is proof for it, but you took me so much apart, that I am now left with the big question if there is any woman on this planet, NOT knowing about me, about my work, and who, the moment she does, just looks at you in the most utter disgust she just can, and then gifting herself directly after it in her true slavery to me, as you "promised" me to do, that you want that, all of you, SoB and shit, yeah, sure, not really, lies, just more, so I wonder if there is at least one woman on this planet being not just some fame, money slut whore that just abuses all she can out of me, leaving me in the state I am now. Most likely not, leaving me with nothing left, and no plan and no hope, alone cause of the fact, the moment I wrote this here, the scum controlling directly my life, made the writing program crash, so I could not keep writing, had to re open it, with the concern about it now being gone, having to write it again. That was just further proof for the negative shit rape show control over my life, not giving a crap, not even, about me. No wonder, the last 15 to 20 years are proof for it. Leads to: There is most likely none of you women ever deserving what I have given you all, each bit of good I wrote about you and so my belief in you women is forever shattered, leading to that the one I started my work for, Saylanna, most likely she is not possible to find and so I am left with damn sure just nothing, no bulwark, no hope, no dreams, nothing, no true, no good, no emotional wonder, oh wonder, cause you took that all away from me, leaving me 15 to 20 years later still in shit, alone, not caring even in the most tiniest bit about me. Your actions of the last one year and a half, spanning over 15 to 20 years are proof for that.
All of you, if you would be serious, you could just, each fragment of a second, make sure my suffering, my bad condition is over, but instead, you make still the decision to keep me in your disgusting control, to take control over my life in only bad, not making anything true, even though you just, simple as that, could. Instead you keep going with that, and to further take illegally, by having hacked all my shit, and so on, stealing my work, you go on with your criminal ways, destroying each aspect of who I am, denying me everything, leaving me in extremely bad life conditions, not giving even a shit about me. Sure, legal actions I will never be able to do about you, cause you just keep shutting me out of reality, out of my hopes, dreams and so on, leaving me with nothing, and now, while I am writing this, you make sound something piss annoying here, to just disturb me writing it, that is all you do: Disturbing, Raping, Hurting, Harming, that is all you do. You do your psychological, emotional rape machine to me, leaving me with nothing, just nothing, all you do is just, to the most tiniest bit possible, destroying me, what you achieved by now, not giving a crap. For all the crimes, the rape you did to me and still do, having made it very clear now that you give not even the most little bit of shit about me, there will be no forgiveness and there will damn sure be no deal making. My application is over, done, just as my life, that you clearly ended, as the scum rape machinery, that you are, for 15 to 20 years by now. Sadly I can never do something about it, cause you just keep going with your shit, clearly. If you would care, you would have never done any of this and I would be happy, have my life, but yeah, do your lies, tell the world you don't know about any of this, deny everything, you rape machinery. Have fun.
